Like all of us I adore my pet, a twelve pound terrier whose every need is cared for. It’s imperative his teeth are cleaned and he’s groomed properly and everything is checked from stem to stern, every single year. There’s no price that is too high when it comes to taking care of my dog. Today, when I took him out for his morning walk, the very first thing he did was walk through a spider web filled with teeny, tiny gnats! All over his entire face and ears, which a vet had just cleaned. Panic mode ensued, with this pet parent trying to get all the deceased bugs off of his face and ears. I never could have anticipated, that of all the places he would go the second he got outside, would be through a fully packed spider web!
After being left at 50, I had a lot of such days.
Forcing myself out, only to do the human equivalent of walking through a web of bugs. It would send me right back to my new apartment to convince myself that going out at this stage of my life in the world as it is, was not a safe thing.
It could be something as simple as a crazy driver riding my bumper and beeping at me until I pulled over, or someone bumping into me really hard at the grocery store and it seemed like they had done it on purpose. A rude jerk taking my parking space at Target. It was all too much. I was just left at 50, I can’t handle any more minor everyday hassles! But they kept adding up pushing me back through my door, to isolation and conjecture about what happened to my marriage.
This little-bit-crazy story is shared because for a lot of women, life feels overwhelming.
We don’t want to do this anymore. But we mustn’t forget that there are other times, when we take excellent care of ourselves and get our hair done and guess what? We still walk through a “web of bugs.” Someone’s judgment of us, a mean look, or worse completely ignored when we walk down the street. But life is what it is. Sometimes you walk through a web. But sometimes that web is destiny putting a bug in your ear. Beckoning you to cease looking at life as an insurmountable threat. We must wipe it off and keep walking. Because we can’t let minor disturbances keep us from the destiny we know is waiting.
We all go through major life transitions when relationships end… Through this website, I will share my thoughts as I walk the path of “New-Self” discovery. It doesn’t matter which side of 50 you are on. The real question is, Are you ready to live life? To forge a Path of Your Own Making (For a change!)? Then stop dwelling over the What-Might-Have-Beens and join me. Share your thoughts here, comment on mine, and let’s do this together!