I’m not sure how it happened, but I’ve become the type of gal who doesn’t go out without lipstick on. I feel incomplete, not as confident. Wearing a mask during this pandemic took that part of my armor away.
I tried to translate the armor of lipstick to the armor of a cute mask, that kind of matched my shirt. It wasn’t the same. Applying a pop of color to my lips, the door to my mouth, through which words of my existence in this world emanated made me want to speak up at that conference or party, A mask does the opposite. It’s a gate across that entryway. It has made me a lot less talkative. And of course, there have been no social events to attend in person. I’ve had to attend zoom-only events like everyone else on the planet. There’s nowhere I need to apply that pop of color.
I’ve discovered the Zoom version of me. She’s totally different from the person at an actual party. You too? Are you more relaxed and therefore more outgoing? Are you less intimidated in Zoom-social settings than you would be standing amongst full-bodied humans?
Have you, as a result of this pandemic come to prefer the Zoom-version of yourself?
I thought so.
And lipstick is still required when I’m on camera on Zoom cause on Zoom it’s my head that folks see and interact with. No one can see my outfit my shoes, no one can smell my Tory Birch cologne. It’s a social interaction completely staged by me.
Now the question is, what happens when this is finally over and I have to go back to in-person-with-lipstick-on Diane?
I’ve finally adjusted to different social choices. From the Zoom background to which pair of glasses to wear. I’ve gradually created a talking head persona.
I’ve gotten more comfortable being on camera for long Zoom calls. Some as long as two hours! Much different than an in-person gathering where it’s easier to hideaway. But for some reason, online has become so easy for me. I’m more relaxed in my home setting where I can grab a cup of tea and stare out the window during dull parts.
The question becomes. During this transition, which is more real life now? Some interactions are still online and more and more are happening in person. I guess it’s another gradual shift in our daily lives to adjust to once more. Until it’s full-time in person, I’m sticking with the lipstick, mascara (sometimes) and fuzzy slippers. It’s funny how we’ve all found the upside to a worldwide pandemic. Ladies, it’s what we do!
We all go through major life transitions when relationships end… Through this website, I will share my thoughts as I walk the path of “New-Self” discovery. It doesn’t matter which side of 50 you are on. The real question is, Are you ready to live life? To forge a Path of Your Own Making (For a change!)? Then stop dwelling over the What-Might-Have-Beens and join me. Share your thoughts here, comment on mine, and let’s do this together!