I don’t know what it was, but the first year I was left, I could not sleep at all. The cold bed. No one to snuggle up to, (even though our “snuggling days” were long gone). Dealing with all the details of life on my own for the first time in 24 years. The Three-a.m.-Worries: “Who’s gonna clean the gutters?” “Fix that toilet that keeps running?” “Protect me if someone breaks in?” “What if there’s a major earthquake, or a fire, or a flood, or if Aliens land and want to harvest my organs?”
Kinda stressful. Yeah, just a little. Scared. To. Death. “How do I handle of this?” “I don’t want to!” “It’s exhausting.” How did I come to this? I did nothing wrong accept “age out!” “Wait a minute! I didn’t “age out!” “Why am I doing this to myself?”
Well, once again, life is what it is. You just have to find your internal strength and start stepping through whatever life throws your way. You. Can. Do. This. Think about all the stuff you handled when you were in a relationship. You really only have HALF the stuff to do now that you are on your own. You don’t have to “run it by” anyone. How liberating is that? Can you not see the blessing in all of this now?
So stop those “3 a.m. Rants of Worry.” In the light of the morning sun you will change your perspective, you are smart and beautiful and CAPABLE. You always have been “the Fixer”. Those days are over. Now that you’ve been left, those clouds of Relationship Conflict are gone. Now the sun shines on you. Drink it in along with your morning cup of coffee. Smile at how far you’ve come. Stand tall knowing you are not afraid of killing spiders anymore. Little victories add up. Maybe you don’t feel this way now, but you will. Stay close to us Leftat50’s. We’ve all felt the same way you were feeling last night. Trust us. You Can Do This Thing Called Life!
We all go through major life transitions when relationships end… Through this website, I will share my thoughts as I walk the path of “New-Self” discovery. It doesn’t matter which side of 50 you are on. The real question is, Are you ready to live life? To forge a Path of Your Own Making (For a change!)? Then stop dwelling over the What-Might-Have-Beens and join me. Share your thoughts here, comment on mine, and let’s do this together!