Today is Random Acts of Kindness Day and it got me to thinking about the end of my relationship and how I didn’t realize how dead it really was, because every now and then, my Ex was kind to me. You know, the “towards the end of the relationship” kindness. When he obviously knew he was walking out on me and I didn’t. I see the fakeness of those hollow gestures now. But at the time, I thought his random acts of kindness, i.e., a glance or smile, or the few times he actually listened to what I was saying and maybe, if I was lucky, looked me in the eye.
Yes, my Leftat50’s, I was so low down, that those tiny gestures were to me, acts of kindness! Things I held onto for days that gave me false hope that maybe he was softening towards me. Maybe we would go to counseling and work it out.
I. Was. Wrong.
So, if you are also confused about if he’s being Kind to you, please note that the most obvious thing is the sheer and utter randomness of his kindness! It’s one thing to be that way towards strangers, which is what this day is celebrating. It is quite another to get a boost from a kindness from your significant other that’s been absent for months!!
But that is how low I was. How kindness-starved! I look back and I feel sorry for the woman that I was a few years ago. And I am overjoyed that today I am the person that I receive the most kindness from. Because I honor myself. Because I deserve to be kind to myself every day. Because, in the midst of my co-dependence inside our “relationship,” I’d actually forgotten how to do that.
As we celebrate Random Acts of Kindness Day, just remember, as you are kind to others, be kind to yourself too. Today and everyday. You deserve that for being the wonderful person you are.
And that’s a fact!
We all go through major life transitions when relationships end… Through this website, I will share my thoughts as I walk the path of “New-Self” discovery. It doesn’t matter which side of 50 you are on. The real question is, Are you ready to live life? To forge a Path of Your Own Making (For a change!)? Then stop dwelling over the What-Might-Have-Beens and join me. Share your thoughts here, comment on mine, and let’s do this together!
And that’s a fact!!