After being left by your spouse, there may still be a “cellular” connection. You know the one I mean. It entails still wanting to make a very specific call. The one you know you should not make. Your mind whispers that this call needs to be made. She is not your friend.
We convince ourselves we have every right to call this man we spent half our lives with. To once again demand answers, to yell at him some more. Time has passed now and many things have already been said. Must you really make this call? (There are deeper motivations at play here.)
Is it to hear his voice again? To lay to rest a secret wish that he will come back?
Perhaps we want more of the reasons why he cheated and left to help us make “permanent sense” of it so we can move on.
With our personal version of closure.
Though I was familiar with all the tricks of my obsessed mind, I still fell victim to it.
For some reason, I wanted to know the reasons I already knew. Like knowing that he was okay even though I was the abandoned one and he NEVER did the same for me! It’s obvious now what motivated this and I know I am not the only one.
I had a woefully incorrect notion deep down inside that he wanted to get back together. I was so sure of it and I was so wrong.
Time finally screamed in my ear that I WAS THE ONE THAT WANTED THAT.
See what I mean? That crazy notion that we shared one mind, the same brain cells even. Hence the second meaning to that “cellular” connection. The days of intimate emotional linkage were long gone. Why I kept trying to reconnect them makes no sense. But that’s okay.
Those inaccurate thoughts that never came to fruition in real life are the same ones that convinced me “it” was really over. In fact, there was no “it!” I had to walk away and find the cellular connection with my True Self. I had hung up on her a long time ago. She’d been calling and calling and getting a “The number you called has been disconnected!” recording. That is the line each and every one of us must re-engage with.
Do that today. I know you have your number. The conversation goes like this. “Hello? This is your new life. So glad you finally answered my call.”
We all go through major life transitions when relationships end… Through this website, I will share my thoughts as I walk the path of “New-Self” discovery. It doesn’t matter which side of 50 you are on. The real question is, Are you ready to live life? To forge a Path of Your Own Making (For a change!)? Then stop dwelling over the What-Might-Have-Beens and join me. Share your thoughts here, comment on mine, and let’s do this together!