Facebook has rolled out new emoji’s to express feelings. There is love, haha, wow, sad or angry. It got me to thinking. These are exactly the emotions I went through after I was left. First of all there was the sad face. I didn’t even realize how long that was my facial expression until people stopped contacting me. I think I looked sad all the time, every day, for about a year and a half.
After that the sadness definitely turned to anger. The nitty-gritty of a split, the legal documents, the realization that I was left to deal with the house and all it’s contents, coupled with having to find a new place to live, had me in an internal and external red-faced place for quite awhile.
Then there was the wow phase. When I heard he was getting married so quickly to my younger, shinier replacement. It didn’t take him any time at all to move on. It was a shock. I felt like I’d been the victim of a cruel joke. And the reaction of others to his actions was often “Wow, who does that?” or something similar whenever I told my story.
Then, thankfully, came the haha phase. For some reason, I got my smile back. I began to relish the apartness. Our time together started to fade and my current situation and what an improvement it was began to make me feel lighter. Life seemed less serious. I wanted to feel what it was like to just have fun. Plus, I got a dog, and his antics supplied me with endless laughter.
Now, I’m in the love phase. Because I truly do wake up happy. I love my sunny apartment, I love my new friends, I’ve learned not to hold on to any of it and only concentrate on my new, days ahead. The absence of fights. Of my own sullen sadness. The darkness I lived with for so many years. I love my life. Not because it’s perfect, but because it’s mine. There are possibilities. I got myself back. I am free! That’s my Emoji Face now.
We all go through major life transitions when relationships end… Through this website, I will share my thoughts as I walk the path of “New-Self” discovery. It doesn’t matter which side of 50 you are on. The real question is, Are you ready to live life? To forge a Path of Your Own Making (For a change!)? Then stop dwelling over the What-Might-Have-Beens and join me. Share your thoughts here, comment on mine, and let’s do this together!