This week millions tried to win the Jackpot. They put their dreams in the hands of Chance. They waited in long lines for hours all over the place for their chance to beat the incredible odds. And no one won. This, my dear Leftat50’s, stood out as a huge Life Metaphor for me. When I was stuck in the horrible relationship that was killing me, I put all my faith in chance. Instead of doing something, and convinced that saying something would just cause another fight, I did nothing. I waited for the hand of fate to fix my life. I waited. And I waited. Then he walked out. And there I was again, wondering what outside entity I could put my faith in to get my life back. To find the path I was supposed to be going down. And I waited. All alone, sad, angry, self-hating, self-blaming. You know the drill.
Little, by little, I came back to reality. The reality that my reality would not come by wishing on a star, or winning the lotto, or any other magical device. I had to get going! I had to put myself out there. I had to sell that big house. I had to get rid of everything and start over. At first that seemed like an overwhelming chore. But little by little, it became empowering. Making my own decisions. Living with my new set of eyes that suddenly saw opportunity everywhere. I was in control now and even though my life was not “perfect” the empowerment I felt (and still feel) each day is what propelled me. What stopped the grieving, and the looking back, and the rehashing and the beating myself up.
Instead I started building myself up. Brick by brick. And I began to feel stronger, safer, protected by my own amazing abilities. The ones that had been shoved away for years. I was good at things. Lots of things. Things I would have never come to doing, unless he had walked out that door. So, I didn’t buy a lotto ticket. I didn’t wait in line for my “lucky” break. And I wasn’t disappointed like those hundreds of millions of people were.
Because now I know for sure that I can make my own jackpot. And so can you. Just get going! Make your life richer. You can do it! And no luck is involved. Just a decision. Make that decision today. Now that’s life changing.
We all go through major life transitions when relationships end… Through this website, I will share my thoughts as I walk the path of “New-Self” discovery. It doesn’t matter which side of 50 you are on. The real question is, Are you ready to live life? To forge a Path of Your Own Making (For a change!)? Then stop dwelling over the What-Might-Have-Beens and join me. Share your thoughts here, comment on mine, and let’s do this together!