Since being Leftat50, cheated on and left to be precise, I sometimes still find myself angry for not saying something, or doing something sooner. Why did I let things go for so long? Why didn’t I speak up? I wasted time, precious time, living a life that brought me nothing but heartache, confusion and self-hatred.
When I look back at that woman that I was, that sad, lonely woman, I just want to hug her. I know that she was scared and alone. I know that she was somewhat in complete shock that the person she trusted the most in her life had betrayed her in such a callus and hurtful way.
But recently, I found a quote by Angelina Jolie. And it’s helped me so I’d like to share it here. “Make bold choices and make mistakes. It’s all those things that add up to the person you become.” And for some reason, reading those words has helped me to forgive my Old Self. The One Who Was Trapped In The Bad Relationship. The One Who Didn’t Speak Up. Or Put Her Foot Down, …Or Leave.
Looking back I realize I just wasn’t strong enough at that time to handle it. I. Was. Scared. My life plan was not going to happen. I was going to have to find a new one. All. By. Myself. I’m so glad I made it passed that stage. And that I started this website to share my story and to hear yours. So if any of you out there, are still working through this anger at yourself, I say let that go now. Who we were led us to who we are now. And every step we take now is a step away from that life and into our futures. Every morning is a new day to do with what we will. We can look to our own eyes for strength now. How proud we can be of that!
We all go through major life transitions when relationships end… Through this website, I will share my thoughts as I walk the path of “New-Self” discovery. It doesn’t matter which side of 50 you are on. The real question is, Are you ready to live life? To forge a Path of Your Own Making (For a change!)? Then stop dwelling over the What-Might-Have-Beens and join me. Share your thoughts here, comment on mine, and let’s do this together!